All work and no play makes dylan a dull boy

I am not bound to win, but I am bound to be true. I am not bound to succeed, but I am bound to live by the light that I have. I must stand with anybody that stands right, and stand with him while he is right, and part with him when he goes wrong.

Abraham Lincoln

There’s this one point in a relationship that we tend to attach to our partner. Attachment, in a sense that we can’t stand not being with then. This can be both crucial and significant. Love moves in mysterious ways, as one song says. Yeah. We can attest to that. Different relationships have different ways of maintaining attachment. Well, I think the most important part of it is presence. We always have to be present for love to push through. And, for God’s sake, your partner should too.

I’m having this depression again. Di ko alam kung bakit. May nagtanong sa kin anong problema ko. Hindi ko talaga masagot yung tanong niya, kasi hindi ko rin talaga alam kung ano yong problema ko. Ano nga bang mali sa kin?

Walang Hanggan Na Please

Di ko alam kung selfish lang ba talaga ako sa lahat. Actually, di ko na talaga alam. Ayoko mag-demand nang sobra dahil hindi ka naman bagay na pwedeng angkinin at ipagdamot sa lahat. Pero, masasabi ko lang ngayon, sa yo lang umiikot ang buhay ko. Di ko na nga ma-imagine pag nawala ka. Anong sense ko? Parang halos buong araw, ikaw lang yung hinihintay ko. Inuupdate ko sarili ko lagi sa kung anong nangyayari sa yo. Jeje love ba to? Kung yun nga term dun, baka nga ganun. I practically don’t have a life besides you. Wala akong trabaho. Wala akong ibang pinagkakaabalahan. Kung iwan mo man ako, siguro ang tanging maipagpapalit ko sa yo eh movie marathon. Ayun, may life nga ako. Movies, putangina. Di mo alam kung san mo ko nailigtas nung nakilala kita at kinilala mo ko. Nailigtas mo lang naman ako sa buhay na walang kasiguraduhan, buhay na puro pagkilala at pagsagot sa tawag ng laman. Ano nga bang problema? Takot lang ako. Takot akong mawala ka. Takot ako sa sayang nararamdaman ko pag kasama ka. May hangganan ba to? Sana wala. 

Believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so you can appreciate them when they’re right. You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself. And sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.

Marilyn Monroe

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Sa oras na to, hindi ako masaya. Napapaisip pa rin ako bakit napakatanga ko. Andami kong kasalanan. Actually, pati ata buong pagkatao ko gawa sa kasalanan. Kasalanan yung pagkabuo ko. Pinapaniwala ko na lang sarili ko na may hope sa lahat ng bagay, na magiging ayos lahat. Pero, hindi ko alam. Hindi ko talaga alam. Malamang, Diyos na lang may alam nun. Alam naman niya lahat. Ang dami ko nang nasasaktan sa mga pinaggagawa ko. Pamilya ko, kaibigan, yung minamahal ko. Hindi ko naman sinasadya at intensiyon lahat yun, pero nagagawa ko. 

Hindi ko na alam actually yung gagawin ko. Kung magpapakamatay ako now, shit lang. Wala akong legacy or dignidad na ihaharap sa burol ko. Ayoko ma-overhear ng kaluluwa ko (kung may ganun man) yung mga tsismisan nila about my suicide. No way. Kung lumayas kaya ako dito sa bahay at bayan na to, iwan ko lahat ng communication devices ko, mawala na lang ako bigla. Sa sobrang tanga ko, baka matunton pa rin ako ng NBI. Shit lang. Siyempre ipapahanap naman ako siguro ng parents ko kahit busy sila..

Nababaliw na ko actually, anxious, wide awake, depressed. Sana makatulog na ko, at nang di na ko ganito. Sana pagkagising ko, ayos na ulit.

This is called treat-yourself day. Masarap ang umaapaw na kanin pag Pinapaitan yung ulam. :)

This is called treat-yourself day. Masarap ang umaapaw na kanin pag Pinapaitan yung ulam. :)

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Steamed egg whites. Dahil magluluto raw si mama ng leche flan, pina separate niya yung yolks.lol mas malasa na for sure yun. :) akin na tong super protein. #postworkout #healthy #meal #eggs #protein #diet #instafood #foodporn #foodgasm #foodpic #delish #delicious #breakfast #yum #hot

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Post-workout meal. :) #food #foodporn #yum #instafood #healthy #yummy #amazing #instagood #photooftheday #sweet #hotdogs #eggs #breakfast #fresh #tasty #foodie #delish #delicious #eating #foodpic #foodpics #eat #hungry #foodgasm #hot #foods #protein

There comes a time when the world gets quiet and the only thing left is your own heart. So you’d better learn the sound of it. Otherwise you’ll never understand what it’s saying.

Sarah Dessen, Just Listen
I Just. Don’t. Caaare.

I Just. Don’t. Caaare.

(Source: tearzah)